Scissors

I know that every single person remembers the moment when they walked away from any type of abuse.

If you have been blessed with a healthy positive upbringing- all you need to know is that it is this odd experience of contradiction, of fear and bravery.

If you cut the strings what will happen?

When they can’t control you, how will they hurt you?

I personally have had the sick pleasure of doing it twice in my life time.

The first time I am not ready to discuss.

The second time is the mere sustenance for my adult being.

After the last time I vowed to never ever allow any negativity or manipulation into my life where it could drain and impose on my children, my spouse, and myself.

I’ll jokingly call it a superpower because I constantly find myself scanning every aspect of my life searching deep for any sign of exploitation or corruption.

Simply, I do not want my children subjected to the same confusion I was forced into as a child, teenager, and adult.

It is a struggle. I am free from first hand control, but not free from third party manipulation, harassment, defamation, and stalking.

Am I then really free from control?

I would not had truly worked through the cycle if I could not admit that I have asked myself multiple times, is not being tied to the puppet master worth all of the evil that has managed to come with it.

Life is not like a lifetime movie.

Although my strings have been cut, they will not diminish. They have only fallen systematically; and as they lay on the ground like a trail leading back to the source, they remind me that I can never truly be free…… because the evil helped create me.

How could I be made from that?